I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all. I will fall.

I was driving in my car about to fall asleep, when I reached for my old school CD case. I pulled out this CD called "Dc Martin's Mix", which is a CD that my sister had gotten for free when she was in high school. I listened to this CD non stop in middle school/ early high school because, I loved the music that she was into. This song, "New Song" by Ben Lee has always been a favorite of mine. Yet, the lyrics never made any sense to me. It is just like Louise Rosenblatt's Readers Response Theory, when you visit a text multiple times you bring different interpretations to it, because you (the reader) has changed. And now that I have been changed because of life experiences, I understand what the lyrics/ text means.

My heart it is eternal
And my soul it often flies
You can see it in the evenings soaring through the skies
And it takes me close to madness
Though it never really tries
I've crossed a million rivers
And I've walked a million miles
I've kissed a holy angel and I've tried to show some style
I never even questioned
How I know it's all worthwhile
But I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
And I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
And I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
I will fall
My legs they get so tired
And my head it often screams
You can hear the thoughts all turning overload of fears and dreams
I don't mind the sting of feeling
But it burns when I'm empty
I'll ride the road I've chosen
And at times I know I'll fall
I have nothing to lose now so I want to taste it all
Wintertime in Glendale
Till the next location calls
But I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
And I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
And I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
I will fall
Well there's no one left but you now babe
Got to say that it's your call
I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
And I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
And I'm gonna make it through and I'm gonna do it all
I will fall

So you ask, what does this mean? Well for all my my friends out there who are struggling with life choices and decisions then this is about you. Think about a child who is learning how to walk. How many times does he/she get up and try again after falling? Countless, until he/she conquers the task of walking. Baby steps at first, then we learn how to run! Just like all of us on our journeys, we make choices and sometimes they lead us to a dead end, or we end up "epically failing", but we must get back up and try again. With the support of close friends who love you regardless of what choices you make, you will do it all! You will be successful! Mostly you will be happy because you were persistent and have proven to yourself that you are the only person who can make your dreams come true.

So, until the next location calls, let your heart love eternally, and remember, babe it's your call! :)